Still Clueless Perhaps, But Making Progress

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My buddy Tom Endres (left) and I hosting a college talent show in our wild and crazy days


One February, when my daughter Erin was five years old, I picked her up at a friend’s house where she had been playing after school. As we arrived home, she mentioned that when spring arrived, she’d like to grow a plant that she had received as a gift since it was dying now. I said, “Better ask Mom how to do that. She knows a lot about plants and flowers.” Erin paused, then said, “You don’t know much, do you?”

It was true. Erin was a perceptive kid and even though she loved me dearly, she sensed that I had as much growing up to do as she did.

I had always been the life of the party in high school and college, cracking jokes and hamming it up. In my late twenties, however, I began dreading parties, especially those where intelligent conversation was expected. Surrounded by smart, successful people, I’d feel like a one-man island, disconnected from everyone else and largely ignored. No wonder others had no interest in talking to me; I had nothing to say. I was immature and self-absorbed. I had grown stagnant.

out-on-a-limb-maclaineThen I picked up Shirley MacLaine’s book, Out on a Limb. Her metaphysical adventures were amazing, exciting, inspiring. I didn’t know what “enlightenment” was, but I knew I wanted it to experience it for myself. I felt like a whole new world had opened up to me. This wasn’t a spiritual alarm clock ringing, it was a four-alarm fire.

I sought out more books about spirituality: Love, Medicine & Miracles by Dr. Bernie Siegel; Creating Money: Keys to Abundance by Sanaya Roman and Duane Packer; Creative Visualization by Shakti Gawain. The concepts I encountered in these and other books were wild, outrageous, mind-boggling; and yet, on one level or another, it all resonated with me.love-medicine-miracles-bernie-siegel

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I started looking at people differently; I was less judgmental and selfish, more loving and compassionate. There was more depth to me. I began hearing the first faint urgings of my life’s work, calling to me from the far reaches of my consciousness. I found my voice and began actively writing for the first time since childhood. I finally had something to say.

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Six months after my thirty-fifth birthday, I was at work when a subtle shift occurred. It felt like all the spiritual principles I had learned had mingled long enough; in a heartbeat, they coalesced and migrated from my head to my heart. There was no Eureka! moment; I just suddenly felt calmer, wiser, more peaceful and happy. I remember thinking, Oh, now I get it. This is what it’s supposed to feel like. Instinctively, I knew that an exciting new phase in my life was about to begin.

Today, sixteen years later, the memory of that day makes me smile—the kind of tender, doting smile I would give my daughter when she proudly showed me the A she received on her second-grade essay. At thirty-five, I was still pretty clueless, but at least I was headed in the right direction. Who knows? Perhaps in another sixteen years, I will look back at the person I am today and chuckle again at how little I really knew.

I sure hope so.





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Phil is the author of Through God’s Eyes: Finding Peace and Purpose in a Troubled World, a comprehensive guide to living a spiritual life. Who will benefit from reading it?

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4 Responses to “Still Clueless Perhaps, But Making Progress”

  1. Kim Wencl Says:

    Great post Phil … I can really identify with what you say. The path to enlightenment is a wonderful thing … the hardest part is finding the path … once you get there you never want to leave it! Have you ever talked or interviewed Shirley MacLaine? If you do a 2nd edition of 60 Seconds, she would be a good one!

  2. Phil Bolsta Says:

    No, I tried to reach Shirley MacLaine to interview her for “Sixty Seconds” but I was told that she wasn’t doing interviews. Perhaps for a future book!

  3. Pam Quinn Says:

    Phil,

    I relate to the subtle shift in energy that you experienced. I have been studying the 8 limbs of yoga very methodically and analytically for years and years as part of my practice. I found it frustrating and confusing. I set it all aside and explored other things and magically when I came back to it, I just got it. It wasn’t something that my Mercury head could ever grasp….my heart had to feel it to understand.

    Thank you for your blogs. I find them inspirational and real.

  4. Phil Bolsta Says:

    Thank you, Pam. I appreciate that. Yes, I’m sure that if I read the books that touched me earlier in life, they would have been way over my head. Guess I’m just a late bloomer!

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